Modern Day Romeo & Juliet

"For never was a story of more woe
Than this of Juliet and her Romeo."
-William Shakespeare

I never would've thought that I would find myself crying my heart out over a situation that didn't involve me specifically. Two of my closest friends, whom I will name Romeo and Juliet,recently broke-up over issues that I had originally find to be stupid and irrational. I was oblivious to the break-up until I received a text from my best friend Juliet one night. I unfortunately didn't read the text till the next day so was unable to respond at the moment. The next day when I called her she told me what had happened. Romeo had called her broken up with her over reasons relating to family issues and time & distance constraints. Knowing this couple and their history together very well, I could not help myself but shed a tear. Through the 6 years that this couple had been together they had been through everything imaginable together. They survived high school and its drama, family differences, distance for Juliet went to university 200km away from Toronto and much more. Everyone in our group of friends was sure they were going to end up together forever. No one would've thought that the end to this couple would come so soon.

Juliet came recently for my boyfriend's birthday (what a surprise) and needless to say got smashed to the point where she was unable to come back to my house to sleep over. She stayed at my boyfriend's house overnight and had multiple episodes of rushing to the bathroom puking and dry-heaving. I was informed by my boyfriend that in her sleep she would mumble Romeo's name and ''why?'' Note, this is approximately a month after the break-up had occurred. Initially after the break-up, she hated Romeo for his cowardliness and his unjust reasonings. The next day I met up with her and spent a couple hours with her at the mall killing tim until her bus arrived to take her back to London. As we walked towards the bus terminal Juliet questions me, "You know what I miss?" I thought she was going to say something along the lines of our high school days when we would come to this mall and kill endless hours of time instead of working on homework and assignments. I responded, "I don't know. What?" She replies, "Romeo..." At this moment I was speechless and felt my heart crack a little inside. She continues on to say, "I thought it would be easy cause I hate him so much for what I did but its so hard to forget."

After my half-day with Juliet and that heartfelt conversation on the way to th bus terminal and was enraged by Romeo. I could not and refused to believe that he can do this to someone he claimed to be his first love and loved dearly. He had plans of working and saving money so they could move out together after she finished medical school free from their parents constraints. As much as I hated him for what he was putting Juliet through I knew deep down that there was more to the story than he fronted. We and a bunch of other people went out for wings and drinks one night after a couple drinks I drew the courage to ask him for the full story. After his undisclosed story was told I asked him, "All that aside do you miss her?" He responded firmly, "Yes." My heart broke at this point. As I wrapped my head around all of this, it hit me that this is just like a modern day Romeo and Juliet. I couldn't help but think how unfair this all was. These two people are still so in love with each other but certain circumstances make then unable to be together.

My heart hurt so much and I couldn't control the tears that came about after this realization. I had to abruptly get up and walk out onto the patio. I couldn't bear to sit there and see the sadness in Romeo's eyes behind his strong front. It was too painful and all too unfair. My boyfriend rushed out after me and held me outside on the patio in the cold night air. As he held me I just cried harder and harder. Tears rolled down my face as I tried to voice my questions to an invisible being of why this would happen to two people who have been through so much together just to end up apart. Inside I could see my friends looking on with concern. I forced my self to control my emotions and hold back my tears. We went back inside and got the bill. Nonetheless it was a very bittersweet night.

Been a year...

Sometimes life just passes you by, even when you're still standing still...

Its been a year and many things have changed - to say the least. New and old people entered my life some as different roles some as stronger ones. This summer was full of adventures - Ottawa, Dominican Republic, Buffalo and the works. Ottawa was full of beautiful tulips and of course Parliament Hill. The Dominican was a whole new experience - a week in the sun away from parental supervision. Sun bathing in the hot tropical sun, swimming in clear blue salt waters, all-you-can drink alcohol, building sand castles and sea creatures and of course fun with loved ones for a whole 7 days. Buffalo was a shopaholic's dream come true. With all the crazy deals at the Niagara outlets and awesome US exclusives at Walden Galleria, Buffalo shopping was a great way to top off the summer. Spent with family, friends and loved ones it was three days of shopping and wacky roller coasters at Darien Lake in Buffalo, USA! 

Now that summer is long gone (*sniff*) and first semester has almost come to and end, everything seems very bittersweet. With so many assignments up ahead, I cant help but feel overwhelmed by it all. Fourth year is almost wrapping up and I cant help but wonder, "Where do I go from here?" Working two jobs in totally different industries my mind is in a whirlwind of thoughts and questions - Where should I work? Should I stay where I am? Should I opt for new opportunities or play it safe? Sometimes time just passes you by so fast even if it feels like you're just standing still...

Crackin' Time

So its been a while since I've blogged but its just been so hectic with work and school and of course, a life! Midterms are all creeping up this month. At least one every week which totally sucks! VSAR is another whole mission and a half! Who knew being president of a student group was so much work? As much as it is fun and hanging with the execs are just pure jokes, I should get paid to do this haha! Very excited to go see Raptors soon though at the Season Opening! YAY! Hope we have a longer season this year...Last year was just tearful. Anyhow, time to catch up on some zzzZZzzs. CYA!

Home 'Sweet' Home

Its so frustrating how the world around you works. People say they care and your the most important thing to them. However, you know that deep down although it may be true the money is always the most important thing. Arguments that revolve around the "green stuff" is too frequent. Kids left to fend for themselves for days at a time. The silence that echos off the walls of what is so called "home." You always get angry and always complain of things that revolve around the issue of your financial standings. It frustrates me for all you ever use it for is your family back home. You need to understand that you have a life of your own now too. You have kids and they have needs that you have the responsibility of providing for. I couldn't stand your irrational ways anymore I had to finally lash out. You give without being asked and the ones that you should be responsible for, you totally disregard. You make a scene and get all teary-eyed in public. You continue your drama in the privacy of your own home. I was asked to apologize for my stupid remarks, but honestly I don't feel the need to. I feel I was right in my thoughts and beliefs and saying sorry just to make you feel better without sincerity is not the way to go. You need to learn that your ways are driving this family apart. It may be true that times that responsibility falls onto someone else's shoulders you tend to create the drama. As for myself, I'm sick of it all. I stick around to make sure that my siblings are doing okay and stand up for them when the time comes. If it were my choice I would've rather suffer trying to support myself then stick around all this drama and chaos. Its unfair to be in a place where it creates and environment in which you feel hostile and miserable all the time...

Turn of Events

Its been the craziest 24 odd hours by far. 4am last night I was rolling around in bed trying to get over the fact that September 20th wasn't going to be as planned. What was suppose to be a clubbing party for a friend flopped due to many frustrating reasons. Went to bed, work up 6 hours later at 10am, showered and headed to work. The boyfriend already had plans for tonight with his best friend,Christina, for her birthday celebrations so I was just planning to work the whole day. A sudden change of mind, I decided I didn't want to work the whole day and just see the boyfriend after. His best friend told him to bring me along too. I'd meet and chilled with her couple times before but I'd initially thought that it was just her and him at dinner but I didn't want to intrude. He told me to come anyways 'cause she wanted me to get smashed with her so I decided to leave work at 6pm and go. Work went by really quickly which was a relief. Always fun times with the fave assistant manager B.C but nonetheless still work. So dinner is all good at Thee Asian Kitchen. yuM sushi, all-you-can-eat. You just can't go wrong =) Headed back to Christina's sister's apartment and the party got going. Drinks and card games, dares and music. Overall a very entertaining night! So what was thought to be the crappiest day recently became the most fun I've had in a while! A slight turn of events can make the worst and darkest days into a bright 'summer' evening =)